I'm seriously considering purchasing an essay and I feel sick about it

[HurtBreaker]

I need to talk to someone because I'm literally shaking right now.

It's 2am, my philosophy paper is due in 12 hours, I have 0 words written, and I've been staring at a blank screen for 4 hours. I've read the prompt like 20 times and my brain just... won't. I've had the worst week ever – my grandma's sick, I lost my wallet, and I think I'm getting a cold.

I found this website where I can purchase an essay and I'm so so tempted. It would solve everything right now. But I've never done anything like this before and I'm terrified. What if they catch me? What if the essay is bad? What if I feel even worse afterward??

My roommate says everyone does it at some point but I don't know. I grew up thinking cheating was this huge line you don't cross. But also I literally cannot fail this class or I lose my scholarship.

Has anyone here actually purchased an essay before?? How did it go?? Did you regret it?? I need real talk right now. No judgment please I'm already judging myself enough.

The website looks legit and they have good reviews but I'm scared it's a scam. Or worse – a trap set by the school?? Is that paranoid?? I don't know what to do. I might just cry instead.

Please someone tell me what to do. I'm desperate.

 

[LaraFlores]

The website probably isn't a trap (schools don't do that) but it's almost definitely a scam or will give you garbage quality. Those "good reviews" are fake 90% of the time. You'll pay $150 for an essay written by someone whose first language isn't English, full of weird phrasing, and you'll have to rewrite the whole thing anyway at 5am while panicking harder.

Also – philosophy papers are HARD to fake. They require specific argument structures that generic writers don't understand. You'll get something vague and generic that your professor will instantly recognize as not your work.

Here's what I'd do: email professor NOW asking for extension citing family emergency (your grandma is real, that's valid). Then write SOMETHING. Even bullet points. Even garbage. You can fix garbage. You can't fix nothing.